So I realized today...that I'm doing it wrong. Not completely wrong, but I'm tending to have the wrong mindset about things. I have good intentions, but I'm still not doing it right. You see, my whole life has been like...up-down-up-down. I'm sure you know what I mean by that. Haven't we all experienced up-down-up-down at some point in our lives? What I mean by this is that...well....it's like a pushing and pulling; a bending and breaking; a stretching and tearing. The battle. The fight. The process. You know the process. The one where you find something in your life that needs fixed, changed, or worked on. And then you give all you have to fix, change, or work on it. And then you're good. Life is good and you feel confident about things. You've overcome your obstacles, you've gotten right with God, and you've settled into joy.
That lasts for a while. And it feels good. Mmm. So good. ...But you know, it never stays good forever. Whether its a week, a month, or a year, you will come to find that things need changed again. And then...here we go. The battle. The pain. The process.
So that's the way I've lived. And it seemed to be ok...until now. I mean, yeah, we all go through hard times. But there are good times too. Such is life, right?
I've been thinking about this a lot lately. And I came to the conclusion that we are kind of misunderstanding this thing called life. I think minor ups and downs are always going to happen. Maybe even some bigger ones every now and then. But I think constantly replaying the process over and over and over and over is slightly unnecessary.
Did you know that with God we have a rock?
We have a solid, unchanging foundation.
Did you know that continued breaking is good?
It helps. It draws us near to God.
"The sacrifice pleasing to God is a broken spirit." Ps 51:17
We just have to know how to deal with the brokennes in a healthy way. Embrace it. But don't let it consume you and drag you down.
So the process...I have concluded....is never going to be over. It's an ongoing process. There is always gonig to be something to fix, change, or work on. We are at war. There is always a battle to be won.
Avoid. Extremes.
This is kind of what I'm trying to get to here. Run. Run after God. But don't get too high and don't get too low. Find that middle. Find that peace. Find that steady breathing that keeps you on track while you're running, so that you aren't gasping for air at one point and barely walking at another. Find your Solid Rock. And embrace the process.
"Therefore, since we also have such a great cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily ensnares us, and run with endurance the race that lies before us, keeping our eyes on Jesus." Hebrews 12:1-2
I am still running; the only place I ever will belong.
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